i realised that i haven't actually written anything in a long while. kind of been missing in action...
you'd be forgiven for thinking i've just been sitting around with my feet up
actually, i've just retreated a little from the virtual world
i have been doing a fair bit of stuff, though...
my niece and i started a whole nursery of seedlings on our balcony - that deserves blog of its own.
the other day i actually referred to myself as a 'freelance photographer' - more in jest than anything else, really, though, just mimicking what a friend had just described me as. not quite there yet.
i've discovered new places
made first visits
and had brilliant times learning from new friends
developing friendships is one of the things i've had a lot of time for other the past few months. so whether it's been in libraries
or even underground
i have spent more time doing things i love
with people i love
it hasn't all been sunshine and smiles, though
there've been times where i've just felt lost
where my whole life seems to just be one big mess
and everything's going too fast
other times i've just found myself so angry about different things happening - in the uk and further afield
but frustratingly, equally incompetent to make real change, so that, even as i rise up and take what little action i can, it all sometimes seems so pointless. it just feels like everything is just out of reach, like any power i have to change things has slowly faded
maybe the only way is to accept that things change - and sometimes i can affect them directly
and sometimes i can't
and all i have is the time i have
to keep believing that there will always be reason for hope